Alone

 

I haven't written a post in a while.  Sorry about that.  I'm doing this while watching The Walking Dead.  I'm watching the first episode... someone tell me why I never watched this before.  It's really good.  It really beefs up support for my intentions to purchase an AR-15 at some point.  Anyway.

I'm sitting here watching that Axe Apollo commercial.  You know, the one when the girl's being attacked by a shark, the lifeguard saves her, but she ditches him for an astronaut.  I'm just wondering... why are people running off the beach?  I mean, the shark is in the water.  Weird.  Someone didn't think that through.

So, lately, I've been a bit stressed out about work, saving up for school, just saving in general, paying my bills, and fitting in time to relax and just recharge.  It just seems like it's one thing after another.  I finally stabilize the financial crap and then my sister needs a place to stay.  That's all settled and then I continue my 7-day work trek, blah blah blah.

Amid it all, though, I somehow found peace.  I don't know what it was.  I can't help but think of a line in this episode (number 2, season 1) of Walking Dead.  "He used to be like us... worrying about the bills, or the rent, or the Superbowl."  What that means to me is beyond words, I guess.  It's not so much that we're all the same, but rather we're alike.  Or we're not identical, we share some of the same characteristics and experiences.

I'm just not the only one.  I'm not the only guy who hates dealing with the phone bill or who resents filling up his gas tank because it costs more money.  I'm not the only one with silly family issues or a future that looks tough to tackle.

I think I can say that there isn't a single person who is experiencing a problem or trial that someone else hasn't.  For the most part.  Whether it's the passing of a loved one or a shattered iPhone screen (not that those two are anywhere near the same amount of impact...), we all will experience that or something like that at some point.

This peace, I suppose, came from this idea that I'm just not alone.   I love that scripture (John 15:18) in which Jesus says, "If the world hates you, remember that it hated me first."   We aren't alone.  I don't know what it is, but knowing that sometimes makes the difficulties easier to overcome.

I normally don't like to talk about my problems or anything.  I stopped texting my friend because I didn't want to talk about my stress.  That's going to change, though.  And see, that's me being an idiot and further driving home that thought that I am alone in my problems.

But this is something I know.  It's something I've always known.  It hit me tonight, though.  It's almost cognitive dissonance though, hmm?  I mean, I know I'm not the only one struggling like this, and I'm also not even struggling as badly as other people, but I feel as though I am.  (There's a difference, in a way, between being alone in dealing with the problem and being alone in ever having the said problem, but I feel that knowing the second one makes the first easier.)

So, I guess all I'm saying is that I'm happy, I suppose.  I'm happy that I'm not alone.  That this is normal, I suppose.  That's why some songs are so loved, because people relate to them.  Because they have lived some of those lyrics.  And maybe that's why people like to listen to music to make them feel better.

On that note, other people have surpassed the very obstacles I'm facing now.  And it makes me feel like I can, as well.


I don't know if this post is significant or if it was worth you reading it.  I just figured I'd share that thought; you just simply aren't alone in your problems, so find peace in that.  Regardless, thank you for reading.  Have a good day :)

Random Fact of the Day: Writing "SEE ID" on the back of your debit or credit cards can be (and usually is) a breach of contract with your card provider.  You are normally required to actually sign it, and if you don't and should your "identity" be stolen, you probably will still be held liable for the charges completed while the card was stolen.  (Of course, I'm no legal expert, but some guy who works for Visa informed me of this.)  Keep it in mind :)